I constantly feel so much guilt it’s exhausting and it makes me feel worthless

I don’t know why but I struggle so much to make and hold conversation and it’s now an issue in lots of ways, I don’t know how to be better :( I feel so helpless and shit constantly

I’m the most awful person alive and I’m struggling more and more to live every single day, why couldn’t I have been better? I fucking hate everything about me

I’m a failure and a fuck up on every single level imaginable

I hate myself I wish I wasn’t alive, I’ve ruined everything

I can’t believe I’ve fucked everything up. I am a failure and a shit person and I don’t deserve anything. I feel fucking horrible about what I’ve done and I don’t know how to stop punishing myself for it. I hate myself for how this has turned out, why couldn’t I just have been a better person? I didn’t ever mean for any of this to happen but it still has. I thought I was doing the right thing but I wasn’t. Sometimes I didn’t even know what I was doing. How is it that I see everything so backwards? Everything that I think is good or right ends up being completely and utterly wrong, so wrong that it has caused detrimental damage.

I feel like shit and I want to undo everything that has been done. I wish I could not exist, and I’ve never wanted to be dead this much before. I need to be better and I can and will be better

feeling sad today :(

i can’t imagine my life without him i just want to rot in a corner

i just want to die i don’t deserve to live anymore. i don’t deserve anything. i only deserve to be unhappy and to suffer knowing what i’ve done

what the fuck have i done

god just let me fucking die

wish i could just die or not exist, i want and deserve nothing less than that

i can’t wait until i’m six feet under i just want everything to stop

life is so shit and so long i want it to be done

i can’t even tell you how much i wish i could just die now